Hi. I’m here, just not here. I’m not gone forever and I promise I’ll be back. I have some things I need to take care of with myself before I can devote my energy to this space.
I don’t know how it happened, but somewhere along the line I fell out of love with myself and got lost along the way. Life started to feel as though I’m just going through the motions and often I’d feel so disconnected from reality but never knew how to come back. Living with PCOS isn’t easy and I started to feel like my anxiety and depression were winning the battle. Over the last few months I’ve spent a lot of time going back to my roots. It wasn’t easy and it took a lot of forced hard-work on my part. I quit attending most social events and focused my energy on myself and my family.
In January I started to be more active and get back into running, but it wasn’t enough. In February I stumbled along and remaining focused was not my top priority. In March I started to get back to being active and realized that connecting with nature is my happy place. I chaperoned a trip to Yosemite with my son’s school and it was a good chance to further connect with nature and do a lot of unplugged thinking. We hiked and remained active during the whole trip and it gave me the motivation I needed to hit the pavement hard when I got home.
Since then I’ve been active almost every single day and my eating habits have improved a lot. I’ve gone from running up to 3 miles at a time to running 12. I’ve made new friends and am even signed up for a couple of local races. One is six miles and one is a half-marathon. Both felt beyond my wildest dreams just a couple of short months ago and now I’m confident I will do well in them.
I feel better than I’ve ever felt before and I’m so excited to return to this space when I’m ready with a renewed spirit and clear mind.